I know he really loves me deep down inside. He told me twice that I was beautiful. He doesn't mean it. I can change. He can change. I don't want to cry anymore. People tell me i'm weak for crying but I don't know what else to do. He gives me $20 every time he hits me. He thinks it can erase my scars. He says he never meant to hurt me.
I't getting better. As long as I keep quiet and just let him go he doesn't get as angry. It will be alright.
I know I should leave him but I love him. People don't understand why I go visit him in jail. He's there because he held a knice to my throat. I miss him. I lost both my kids. They won't give them back until I leave him. I am scarred to leave him.
He tells me i'm crazy. He tells me i'm ugly. But he still makes love to me. He must love me.
I haven't seen my family in awhile. He doesn't trust me. I'm only allowed to hang out when he's there. If he thinks a guy is looking at me. We have to leave. He'll hit me when we get home, then we'll have sex so I know he belongs to as he says.
He made me practive how to hug other guys on our freind. I was laughing, then I looked in his eyes and I knew I better listen.
I'll leave tommorow
It'll be alright